1 week left of posting here in Ipoh......

Counting the days as it draws nearer to the end of my 1st posting.....

i don't know wether staffs and clients here will miss me, but for sure i'll miss them.... for me, they're great!

Yayasan Sultan Idris Shah has taught me a lot. Not just in physiotherapy knowledge, but knowledge in life.... This place taught me how to live a good life... The disabled taught me how to as strong as them... They also taught me to never give up, like them not giving up to learn how to be independent....

I'm wounded.....

Have you ever been stabbed before? do you know how it feels if a 10tan truck falls directly on top of you? have you ever feel being electricuted with 10k watts of electricity?

imagine put all that together, and it happens to your own heart.... for me, that's how frustration feels like...

After what i've done, you still miss him instead of me?? you only miss to hit me and torture me...

is it still not enough the love i gave you? you know my love is a privilege... why not try to love me instead of remembering things about that jerk?? Am i not good enough? is it because of he's taller and i'm fatter??

u asked me to give you time to forget about him, and i gave you all the time you need... but i can't wait for 5years like before....

u asked me to understand th condition you are in right now, but have you ever tried to understand me? if i can, why not you? is it because all humans are different??

hmm.... what i'm asking you is to think rasionally with your mind... please... i'm begging you... i'm like others, i want to be loved...

You are so not over him...........

Ku tahu sudah banyak kesilapanku sejak dari dulu lagi... ku sudah tahu pengalaman akan mengajar kita.... akan tetapi, ku masih membiarkan ia berlaku... ku sudah memberitahu, yang lepas tu lepas je lah... walau ape pun alasannya... ku mahu kamu bahagia apabila berdamping denganku... tetapi, reaksi yang kamu berikan amat susah untuk menyatakan kamu bahagia bersama ku... adakah tidak mencukupi kasih sayang ku curahkan untuk kamu? adakah kehadiranku menyerabutkan kamu lagi....? adakah kamu perlukan masa lagi? apa perlu ku buat supaya kamu sayang padaku...? ku bersyukur kerna kamu menghargai diri ku kerna belum ada orang lain menghargai ku seperti kamu menghargai ku...

tiap-tiap hari ku berdoa supaya pintu hatimu terbuka untuk menerima ku... ku juga berdoa agar dia jodoh ku, ibu bapa dpat menerimanya dan ibu bapanye menerima ku...

akan tetapi, lumrah manusia untuk menyatakan "enough is enough"... ku tidak mahu itu berlaku... kenapa ku amat sakit sekarang ini? apa salahku, apa dosaku untuk menerima dugaan ini ya Tuhanku yang Maha Adil?

Apa jua cubaan dan dugaan akan ku tempuhi, hanya ku minta padaMu untuk memberikan kudrat untuk mengharunginya.... ku redha akan keadaan kami sekarang... ku hanya boleh bersabar dan beristighfar.... janganlah Kau ambilnya daripadaku lagi...

please, i beg u to not to think about him anymore...... yang lepas, lepaskanlah... tiddak cukupkah ku merana dan makan hati disini....? atau pembalasan ini belum setimpal dengan apa yang ku pernah buat dulu....? astaghfirullah al 'azim.....................

Apa yang sebenarnya berlaku hari ini?

Let's recap on today's activity.... i wake up at 5am, blurred and don't know what to do. Then, 6.30am i took m shower... after that, get dressed and solat... then, around 7.15am i drove and dropped Waqar at YSIS... i was on my way to the hospital, heavy traffic congested the road... plus, lousy and 'kurang ajar' drivers was all over the place... ku memecahkan keheningan pagi itu dengan kata2 'power' dan tidak menyenangkan langsung.... they're really testing my patience...

arriving at the hospital, no parking... so many sick people nowadays... damnit! I went to the X-ray room and being x-rayed after waiting 1/2++ hour... it sucks... Then, they asked me to go to the S.O.P.D... Whatthehell is that????? after following instructions, arrived at the surgery clinic... i gave my referral letter, they asked me to sit... i sat d

own, another 10 minutes they called my back semata-mata meminta i.c.... i gave my i.c., they asked me to sit down again... another 10-15minutes, i was called again... they gave me the letter and i.c. and told me to come on 25th of january 2011... whatthefuck??? they made me waited just to say that i have to come again on the 25th??? i have things to do, i'm on practical... why do they like to waste my time just like that???

good thing my 'sister', Cheong Zhi Qing cheered me up today by showing improvement on her walking and standing... she was born prematurely and diagnosed with Diplegic Cerebral Palsy... for me, she is cute, adorable and clever... she doesn't want anybody else to take care of her except me and Amalina.... huhuhu... i love her and hoping to see her grow up normally... my short term goal is to make sure she can stand unsupported with her own 2 feet... Very easy for us normal people, but very hard for them the disa

bled...

so, was it worth it that i had a bad start for today? until now i'm feeling that i can't get rid of this frown on my face... why??? For me, Cheong Zhi Qing was the only person that can make me happy today... huhuhu.... many thanks for her... i'm sure i'll feel sad leaving this place, especially her........

Yayasan Sultan Idris Shah, Bercham, Ipoh, Perak

8November-31Disember ku akan berada di sini untuk menjalani latihan klinikal ku sebagai seorang ahli fisioterapi.....

staff2nya best, patient2 yg baik, suasana kerja yang amat menenangkan..... what else can you ask from it? hehehe....

Support la Yayasan ini, suatu badan berdasarkan charity.....

huhuhu......

punya la penat ku perah otak, rupanya ku ad dua post yang hampir sama dibawah tajuk berbeza2.... hahaha....! anggaplah seperti suatu sudut pandang berbeza..... peace! =p

Dear God ~.......

Seminggu sblm final paper ku bermula, ad satu peristiwa yang amat penting berlaku dalam hidupku... peristiwa itu telah mengubah hidupku secara keseluruhan...... ikutilah kisah sipenyibuk menjadi orang baru! hehe....

pada suatu malam, seorang sahabatku telah jatuh sakit da meminta pertolongan ku untuk membelinya makanan... ku belikan nasi hakim bersama air 100+ 1.5liter untuk die telan.... ku tunggu die mkn sbb ku tahu akan perangainya yg hanya memakan terlalu sedikit..... masa die mengambil makanan dr tanganku, tiba2 die mula rebah.... terus ku sambutnya... padahal, sepanjang ku kenal dia, xpernah ku sentuh lebih dr tangannya... itu p0n terpaksa pegang tangn or tersentuh ja...

Ku amat marah kerna pada waktu2 begini, dimanakah hilangnya teman lelakinya itu? lantas ku menelefonnya dan suruh dia datang juga ke rumah sahabatku ini.... Sesudah sampai teman lelakinya itu, terus kene sembur dengan ku... seperti hujan lebat membasahi bumi dalam waktu yang singkat sehingga menyebabkan banjir, sebegitu rupa ku menyemburnya... akan tetapi, ku terlepas cakap jua yang sebenarnya ku sudah lama menyayangi sahabatku ini... menyayangi lebih dari seorang kawan... teman lelakinya juga hal itu kerna ku pernah memberitahunya... ku ingat lg pada masa itu, teman lelakinya juga telah berjanji dengan ku untuk menjaga dia baik2...

Sebagai teman lelakinya dan juga sebagai kawan kpd ku, dia telah memungkiri janji tersebut. ku dpt tahu sblm tu dia sudah lama curang dgn sahabatku ini...

ape2 p0n, pegi mamp0s lah sama teman lelakinya itu yang kini bergelar bekas..... hanya kerna dia, ku ingin melihat die merana sepanjang dia hidup, sepertimana dia telah membuat kpd diriku.... salah satu prinsipku: "An eye for an eye"......... Kepada bekas teman lelaki sahabatku ini, bejaga2lah kamu ye......

Sejak itu, sahabatku ini tidak abis2 menanyakan tentang perkara itu... "betul ke ko sayang ak lebih dari seorang kawan?" "betul ke ko sukakan ak?" antara soalan2 yg diajukan... mmg patut pun dia mengambil jurusan MassComm....sentiasa menggali untuk mengetahui lebih mandalam...

Setelah itu, pada 14Oktober 2010 di Pantai Remis Kuala Selangor, ku lafazkan juga walaupun takut ditolak...... dia sudi menerima ku sebagai kekasihnya walaupun pada awalnya dia mengaku tiada perasaan itu.... dia mula belajar untuk menyayangi ku... skrg mulalah berkembang kisah kami yang hanya bermula dari satu persahabatan menjadi sepasang kekasih... akan tetapi, ku perlu pergi praktikal di ipoh, meninggalkannya sekali lagi... berat hatiku tapi demi pelajaran ku perlu maju ke depan....


~ Dear god,
The only thing i ask from you is to hold her when i'm not around, when i'm much too far away..
The only person who can be true to you, i left her when i found her, and now i'd wish i'd stayed...
'cause i'm lonely, i'm tired, i'm missing you again, oh no............

Dear God ~ Avenged Sevenfold



p/s: Ku amat menyayangimu... sejak mula ku kenal mu wahai kekasih hati......

zombie.................

ku di rumah.................

bagaikan zombie...............

tidak tahu apa mau buat............

rumah sudah kemas...........

bilik sudah kemas.........

dapur sudah kemas......

da mula bosan ngadap lapt0p..........

nk keluar member2 tarak..........

tgk tv, tv xbesh............

nk study? harapan arr............

nk tido? da penat tido daaa...........

Lucky by Jason Mraz feat. Colby Callait... =)

Salam to all blogwalkers! here's an interesting story that seldomly happens to people...

ku berkawan dgn dia sudah 2 tahun... orang paling mengenali ku di Unisel adalah dia... yang ada waktu ku suka dan duka.... ku rasa dialah perempuan paling beruntung kerna dia telah menyaksikan 4 lelaki gagah menjatuhkan air mata mereka... haha!

tapi, sejak tahun lepas, ku menjauhkan diri kerna dia meminta ruang untuk die bersama teman istimewanya.... ku hormati keputusannya dan undurkan diri.... dia langsung tidak mengetahui perasaan ku terhadap dia... Akan tetapi, peristiwa baru2 ini telah membuatkan ku terlepas cakap kepada dia.....

ayat paling membuatkan ku terharu ialah "aku keluar dgn ko untuk mencari barang2 mamat tu, tapi aku paham perasaan ko waktu tu kerna ak sudah kena apabila mamat tu keluar dgn ak untuk beli barang untuk awek baru mamat tu..." terharu kerna dlm masa yg singkat dia dpt memahami ku....

jika semua kwn2 ku di unisel mengetahui akan perhubungan ku ini, msti ada yg mengatakan "padan muka! dulu ego sgt xnk cakap dgn dia! haha", ada yg akan senyum sinis, ada yg akan mengatakan "akhirnya, korang da together!" hehehe....

ape yg penting, kehadiran dia dlm hidupku pada 14 Ocktober 2010 bertempat di Pantai Remis, Kuala selangor telah berjaya membuatkan ku 'let go' kpd kisah2 silam ku...

14 Oktober 2010.... When my life begins.... Sayang, if u're reading this, thnx so much sbb masih sudi terima ku seadanya.... ku akan berubah demi masa depan kite....

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri...!

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri! di sini ku ingin mengambil kesempatan untuk memohon maaf zahir dan batin, dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki, yang terkumpul dari dulu sampailah ke waktu ini...

Seperti bias, pagi raya akan ke masjid untuk solat hari raya (kalau sempat... =p)... selepas itu, terus ke rumah tok di Kampung Permatang Berangan, Pinang Tunggal, Sungai Petani..... sesudah sampai, menziarah kubur arwah tok wan ku yg sudah lama meninggalkan dunia ini... tahun ni, genap 20 tahun ketiadaannya... itulah orang yg paling ku ingin berjumpa, tp tak kesampaian... hanya 1 tahun saja dpt bersama dia...

selesai di sana, balik rumah dan bersiap untuk ke Alor Setar pula. Selalunya, raya pertama akan berada di rumah saja untuk melayan tetamu yg datang menziarah... hingga malam melayan tetamu, akan bermula sesi mengemas rumah... hehehe.....

raya kedua pula, turn kite0rg pula g beraya... hehee.... pada hari ini, breakfast tidak perlu kerana hendak menyimpan perut untuk makan di rumah sedara mara... hehehe.....

selepas itu, hari ketiga dan seterusnya, berlangsung seperti hari biasa... kalau rajin, buat openhouse... kalau tak, ku merayau ke rumah member2 yg da lama tak jumpa...

tp plg bes nye kalau fon xberhenti menerima mesej raya.. dr mlm sblm raya smpai raya pertama, masih lagi menerima... malangnye, takde kdt untuk balas... hehehe... tapi, ad satu mesej paling bes pernah dapat berbunyi sprti ini:

Seiring salam seharum ganja,

Kasih diberi sehening Whisky,

Dengan hati seputih shabu,

walaupun dosa sekecil extacy

mahupun sehalus serbuk kokain,

Maaf dipinta zahir dan batin,

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri

Satu lg mesej ini simple dari Manager tmpt ku kerja:

Hari-hari makan Nando's Peri-peri

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri

Maaf Zahir dan Batin

hehehe..... sekian dulu yeeee..... =D

Kisah sedih, duka dan ceria Telefonku...

Salam ku ucapkan kpd blogger2 yg tegar... maafkan ku atas ketidakhadiranku di sini untuk bercerita...

Sekarang ni adalah masa yang amat sesuai untuk menukar telefon bimbitku ini kerana telefonku terlibat dengan kemalangan ngeri akibat merajuk denganku di atas niatku untuk membeli yang baru... Dia punya merajuk sampai ke tahap melakukan adegan lasak dan ngeri sehingga terjatuh dari motor dan terhempas di atas batu jalanan yang keras di hadapan Monfort Boys Town (belakang Politeknik Shah Alam tuuuu)...

Ku tidak sedar akan kejatuhannya sehingga ku sampai di Nando's... Apabila ku ingin keluar untuk membuat penghantaran makanan, baru ku sedar yang telefonku sudah tiada lagi.... Ku membuat laporan kepada ibunda ku yang berada d

i rumah da meminta tolong beliau untuk menjejak semula telefonku itu... setelah membuat siasatan penuh terhadap kes kehilangan itu, ku berjumpa seorang saksi yang kebetulan berada di tempat kejadian... Beliau telah menyimpan telefonku itu sehingga ku sampai... Alang2 membuat penghantaran di Kelab Golf di Sek.13, ku terus memecut kearah saksi itu... beliau telah menyerahkan telefonku, cuma tinggal body, SIM card dan Memory card ku sahaja yg terselamat... syukur dapat berjumpa dengannya semula... dia sakit tenat, dan masih lagi berada di wad ICU... Ku sedih kerana telefon itulah yang ada bersama2 ku ketika ku susah dan senang...

selang 2 bulan, ku mencari penggantinya... teramatlah susah untuk mencari pengganti yang sesuai... akan tetapi, ku jumpa juga pengganti yang sesuai... Minggu lepas, berbekalkan duit gajiku dengan bantuan PTPTN ku, dapat juga

ku beli itu telefon... hatiku girang sekali! dan sekarang, bermulalah kisah baruku bersama telefon ku ini... sehingga masa yang sesuai, ku akan merawat telefon lamaku dan gunanya semula...

jangan risau wahai Nokia 6300, kamu bakal ku guna semula... wahai Samsung S5620 Monte, kamu dihatiku sekarang... =)

p/s: bes kan bahasa ku kali ni... sudah lama ku tidak menggunakan bahasa sebegini rupa... haha!

da cuti, cari duit lebey arr...

alang2 ad bk masa terluang, g keje lg bgus kn... tukarkan titik peluh kepada wang! wang yg b0ley digunakan pd masa akan dtg dan masa 'emergency'... =D

skrg ku kerja sbg seorang Rider di sebuah kedai makan di SACC Mall... le tahan gak arr penatnye... huhuhu.....

so, kalo ad sesape nk cri ak, ak kt SACC Mall... hehehe...

Unexpected!

fuhh! smpai umah kul 1 pg... gler arr! mak xmarah ke??? jawapannye, ku keluar bwk mak ku jalan2... hehehe... katanye, nk tgk la rupa upt0wn ni mcm mane... haha! so, alang2 ad masa, ku bwk la... skali ngn adik2 ku kene usung! =p

bwt pertama kali dlm id0p, ku jln di setiap lorong di upt0wn tu! wahhh! gler gempak arr... abes je setengah uptown tu explore, g mkn dlu.. mks p0n sedap... murah p0n murah... hehehe... arini gwa rilek je ngn famili ku... =D

lpas mkn, smbg la jln2... ku beli peluru! wahh!! cm mane ak bli peluru??? ak bli rantai daaa... hehehe... saje nk pkai, da lma ngidam nk pkai... =p lpas tu, bli lg sluar, padahal td ptg kluar da bli da sehelai.. haha! ntah nape ak gler sh0pping arini... hehehehehehe....

adik bongsu plak dpt jam Hannah Montana... Lawa katanye... hehe... ak no k0men je... layan je kerenah die... sape lg ak nk lyn cm ni kalo bkn kt adk sndiri kn... kalo org len, mau kene bahan ngn ak cukup2! hahaha! on da way blk tu, ku ngn adik nombor 2 tu usha la sekumpulan gadis2 nih... peewwwiiiittt! hehehe... tp usha dr jauh je la... pewit p0n dlm hati... hehehe... tp, tetibe di0rg pndang kite0rg... xpe arr, ley c0ver2 bwt2 tgk brg lg... hehe.. tp ad s0rg dlm kumpulan tu mcm kenal sgt2... 1st, xsdar... adik ku ckp, "ye, btui! xtipu!"... tp, ak tgk stil mcm xcaya... aduyai...

btul ke nih minah ni ku kenal dlu??? da 3-4 tahun da xjumpe, tetibe terserempak kt upt0wn plak... ku rasa bagai dikenekan renjatan letrik! hahaha! smpai skrg d0k rasa... dlm keadaan ku begitu, mereka p0n beredar...

ku xpuas hati...! adk ku p0n xpuas hati! ik0t kejap kumpulan gadis nih utk dptkn kepastian... siap jerit nama...! tp mcm xde resp0ns je... xpe arr... j0m blk... huhuhuhuhu.....

ku jln2... smbil melupakan peristiwa itu... huhu... bwt cm xde pape berlaku... ku jln2 lg... ke arah kereta ku... tetibe, adk jerit nma ku! ku berpaling, melihat ad 2 org gadis berada di entrance uptown tuhh... sape la awek2 tuu?? mcm prnah tgk je... huhuhu... adk pggl suh bejumpe ngn die... die p0n dtg... ku p0n pergi... dgn keadaan disoriented lg, ngn keadaan jerebu di dlm kepala ku yg amat2 tebal... ku pergi dan terus tegur die... "samek0mm...!" smbil tesengih2 ku... =p

lpas berb0rak seketika, ku p0n memint diri sbb mama da tggu kt keta... ku pulang lah dgn keadaan jerebu di dlm kepala ku da clear... hehehe... 'die' rupenye... mmg lma xjumpe die... dlm masa yg sama, memori2 silam bwt sesi 'flashback' la pulak... aduyai... nk tido p0n xley... tu yg on9 gak tuu... =p hehehe... but memories will always be memories... u can't just simply ask to turn back the time... yeah, th0se were the days... the best moments in my life... first time feeling being loved... 1st love... =)

hidup perlu diteruskan, kn? yg silam sbg pengajaran dan pengalaman, bkn untuk dikenang selalu... yg skrg perlu berusaha dgn lebih keras supaya yg masa depan terjamin dan bersedia... =)

blogging.......

penyibuk: wahhh!!! blog sapa ni???

wanzack: blog hg la d0d0l!!

penyibuk: lorrrr..... tu kaaa....... hehehe.... s0rry2 lma xupdate...

wanzack: apa pasai lama xupdate?? pooodaaacchhiiii!!!

penyibuk: hehehe.... s0rry arr bro.... xpa2, i tell u st0ry, ok??


assalamualaikum... s0rry bloggers sbb lma xupdate... kinda busy sbb lecturer baru nih sangat2 active, sehinggakan ku semput nk catch up... bayangkan, last week class kt pusat akuatik... then, ari jumaat pg disuruh bwt circuit training... ffuuuhhhh! mmg bes....

then, came along MASSCOMM's double event: ANITAMENT n 2-Wheels Carnival on Saturday... perrgghhh... wa cakap sama luu, bes! satu hari suntuk kt situ p0n xboring seyh...

semalam, ku ditawarkan untuk jd extra dlm pengabaran drama "angin rindu di Sarajevo" terbitan RTM pada bulan puasa nnt... mmg suatu pengalaman baru... bes sgt...!

itulah sedikit sebanyak sinopsis cerita ku sepanjang minggu lepas... nnt bile2 ku ceritakan lg... hehe... maybe akan stop kejap sbb final exam is just around the corner...

ape2 p0n, kepada rakan seperjuangan ku, all the bes f0r final exam nnt! =D

hey lonesome!!! y r u here wit me???

time is sh0wing 2.09 in the morning.... still, i haven't sleep yet... what am i supposed to do??? it's all quiet and peaceful... too quiet to be exact... lonesome is also here with me...

me: hey lonesome! why are u here with me???

lonesome: because you're empty maaaaa........

me: what do you mean by empty?? i still got my family and friends.....

lonesome: of course! but you don't have a person you love and care for you differently from them...

me: hmmm....... quite true... still in search of that person.... the ones that are here are already taken... not to mention my crush...... it's like 2 worlds apart and i feel like i can't reach to her...

lonesome: can't u try to talk to her about the way you feel towards her?

me: no, i'm too nervous and too shy to even talk to her!

lonesome: in that case, i'll be here beside you longer! hahahahahahaha!!!

me: damn... huhuhu.....

lonesome: hey, this is not the "WanZack" that i kn0w larh........ are you lost within yourself???

me: dunno laa.... it's been a long time since i have a crush... and the last time i had a crush, it crushes me into bits of pieces! huhuhu.... these experiences taught me, and i think i should playsafe and let it go... besides, no 1 kn0ws about this crush......

lonesome: up to you..... don't blame me if i'm around you always.... hehehehehehe......

me: ...............................*he loves making me speechless*




i think i'm going crazy already, talking to myself in the middle of the night..... huhuhuhuhu.......

CracKeD!!

mcm2 ley berlaku kalo ku crack! haha! ak jd gler, keje bahan org n gelak keji memanjang...! =p

tp dun w0rry, ku bahan org, bkn jatuhkn maruah die ke ape p0n, tp nk bg org hepi n bg diri sendri hepi... 2 je niat ku kalo nk bahan org... hehe... terserah la org tu nk interprate bahan2 ku tuhh... =p

antara penyebab ak crack ye lah:

1. terlalu penat



2. tension terlebih



3. stress memanjang



4. someone pisses me off..........



5. selepas big exams



6. selepas presentation

hehe... watch out kalo sape2 selisih ngan ku time2 ak ngah crack, siap la utk dibahan... hahahahahaha!!! XD

D0wn je minggu ni.......

pergh...... penatnye..... da lama xrasa penat cm ni..... sepanjang minggu berhempas pulas membantu menjayakan Hari Fisioterapi untuk Karnival BIOMESTA dan sukaneka BIOMESTA...

xcukup dgn tu, byk lg konflik2 dalaman yg ku simpan hanya semata2 xnk org nmpk sbb nk menjayakan karnival yg julung2 kali diadakan di fakulti ini...
hari rabu, ku ambil masa untuk besembang dgr rakan d0rm lama ku... rupa2nya dia p0n serupa dgn ku tentang soal hati dan perasaan nih... org yg sama kita suka... aduyai... ku sudah agak benda ini msti ada punye... hmmm....
tp disebabkn pengalaman pernah berada di situasi ini, ku confront juga dan masing2 meluahkan apa yg ada di dlm isi hati ini...



tp xpe, ku ucapkan die semoga berjaya mendapatkannya... bukan style ku untuk cut line org... prinsip hidupku, xnk begaduh kerana perempuan...

drpd ku terus terang kpd perempuan yg ku sayang tu, lebih baik ku berdiam diri... biarkan saja hal ini berlalu tanpa diketahui orang... pengalaman telah mengajarku, dan ku xnk terluka dgn lebih dalam apabila ku tak diterima olehnya....

ada satu je perkara yg kita nk tgk drpd org yg kita sayang, iaitu melihat dia bahagia, walaupun bukan dgn kita... betul x ape yg ku cakap? hmm....

Ketandusan..............

sejak kebelakangan ni, ku ketandusan idea untuk menaip di sini... huhuhu... xpe, ku share lagu2 yg ku rec0mmend... hehe.... :

1. Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz feat. Ludacris
2. Cerita Kedai Kopi - Malique feat. Salam
3. Bella luna - Jason Mraz
4. Gives You Hell - All American Rejects
5. Baik-baik Sayang - Wali
6. Don't worry Be Happy - Bob Marley
7. I Go - OST Talentime
8. Speed Lover - Initial D
9. Running In The 90's - Initial D
10. Jailhouse Rock - The Blues Brothers
11. Sejiwa - Spring
12. P.U.S.P.A. - ST12
13. Akulah Kekasihmu - AXL's
14. Cari Jodoh - Wali
15. Number One - OST Bleach
16. Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold
17. Sunday Mornings - Maroon 5

Banyak lg lagu yg ku selalu dgr dan xpenah b0san untuk mendegar semula... tp, ini hanya recommendation drpd ku... maybe taste lagu ku xsama ngan org laen... hehe...

Pemimpin

Pemimpin... bagi sesetengah orang, seronok kalo dapat pangkat tu... ada sesetengah lagi menyatakan, ku tak mahu jadi pemimpin...

ku byk pergi kursus kepimpinan da sewaktu dengannya... mmg banyak ku belajar cara2 untuk memimpin... yang paling penting ialah confidence untuk memimpin... dengan berbekalkan ilmu di dada yang baru setitis, ku ingin memimpin sambil menambah ilmu2 tu lagi...

tapi, sejak kebelakang ini, ku sering bermuhasabah diri... adakah ku benar2 layak untuk memimpin...? boleh ke ku memimpin? ramai yg jawab, kau mst b0ley punye...

tapi, hakikatnya, tanggungjawab itu lebih besar di sebalik kuasa yang diberikan... Di akhirat nanti, kalo sesiapa tidak menjalankan tanggungjawabnye sebagai pemimpin, akan dipersoalkan dan jika tidak bertanggungjawab, nerakalah jawapannya... betapa besarnya tanggungjawab tu...

terfikir akan perkara ini, membuatkan ku takut semula untuk memimpin... Sepatutnya, orang akan takut untuk jadi pemimpin kerana tanggungjawab itu amat besar... Akan tetapi, makin ramai yang menagih akan kuasa pemimpin... bagi mereka, mereka dapat lakukan apa sahaja dan dapat kawal orang2 bawahannya mengikut kehendaknya... tak takut ke dipersoalkan nanti di akhirat?

satu lagi, apabila sudah jadi atau pernah menjadi pemimpin, mereka riak dan megah2kan diri... terlalu membanggakan diri seumpama dia seorang yang hebat...

t0l0nglah, jangan jd mcm tu... tak kire kite ni pemimpin ataup0n tidak, kita semua sama saje... xde beza p0n... ku manusia, kau juga manusia... nak kata ko hebat, bandingkanlah dengan seorang pemimpin paling hebat di muka bumi ini, iaitu Nabi Muhammad S.A.W... Baru kau tau langit tinggi mane... baru lah kau berpijak semula di bumi yang nyata...

ku hanya berpesan kepada semua pembaca dan diri sendiri juga, dengan pesanan yang tak seberapa ini... ku hanyalah umpama 'pencacai' di mata korang yang berkuasa...

Accident!!!

Kunagh enj0y angin ptg apabila pulang ke rumah dr unisel ngan motor... hehe... besnye... berangin plak tuu... pns p0n x... sjuk p0n x... it was a go0d journey, until i arrived at the traffic light at Polytech Shah Alam... huhuhu... ku dr lane kiri, ingin memasuki ke kanan dengan perasaan begitu aman damai... tiba2, ad motor laen lalu laju di hadapan ku... PAAAANNGGG!!! tayar dpan ku tersangkut di pedal kaki motor die... huhuhu... nasib bek la x jd superman! ku jatuh tersungkur, dengan nasib baek ada rumput dan lopak di sebelah kanan ku itu... akibatnya, ku basah + sakit! hahaha! abg m0t0r tu pusing balik, melihat bagaimana keadaan ku... bagus laa... da lama ku xjumpe pengguna jalan raya di Shah alam yang prihatin... kalo x, sume pentingkan diri... nasihat kpd kawan2 ku, berhati2 lah di jalan raya... jgn jd mcm ku, t'lupe seketika untuk sayangi nyawa yang diberi oleh tuhan yg esa...

my diagnosis: medial mellalus of left foot swelling and terderness, lateral side of pattela of right foot abrasions and minor cuts, swelling and terderness, wet and dirty kemeja! lalalala....~~

The rythm of the falling rain....

today, 25th of february 2010, heavy rain has struck Shah Alam this noon, and still no sign of stopping... looking at the rain, reminds me of my childhood, always enjoying playing in the rain! hehe... it also reminds me of the song "listen to the rythm of the falling rain" and "raindrops keep falling on my head"... man, i just love looking at the rain... so soothing, so peaceful and not to mention, cool... it cools down mother earth, it also cools people down too...!

looking at the rain is the only time i can think right! hard to believe, but it gives me peace to my soul and mind so that i can think pr0perly...

i miss playing in the rain! lets do rain dance, in the rain! =D

ala... bru dpt call... mama suh blk cpat n repair motor... nk tggu hujan reda dulu arr... at the mean time, i'll enjoy myself looking at the rain... =P

What the heck! i do l0ve her!

scratch everything what i said before!!! i'm in l0ve with her! that's what matters n0w! i'm the better man! i want her! and i'm sure she wants me to0!

go0d day today! with a little thinking...

i w0ke up this morning with a smile on my face...! that means, i'm ready to face anything with a smile! not much to do in the morning except doing overtime with my sleep... haha! then, after the friday prayers, went to my friends h0use...

suddenly, i g0t a feeling... to kare0ke! haha! kn0cking out some s0ngs until our thr0ats dried up! damn go0d! singing our hearts out with "tangkap leleh r0ck kapak melayu" songs, nailing th0se high pitch n0tes, although i'm n0t a go0d singer...! but still enj0yed it!

Then, my c0usin called, asked me wether i want to go to the movies with them... "Of course i will!!" haha! da cuti2, nk bwt ape lg kn... hehe...
we watched the movie "the wolfman", the m0vie was damn nice i tell u! hehe... i really rec0mmended it to th0se who like seeing blo0d squirting action and thriller scenes, not rec0mmended to th0se who are faint hearted... hehe...

i enj0yed most of the day today... but sumthing caught my attention... when i was kare0ke'ing, for a moment i th0ught ab0ut that girl... she has already have someone who l0ves her dearly... and i shouldn't be making her thinking ab0ut me... after hearing some opinions, i thought that i have to leave them just the way they were... it's actually my fault too because i didn't approach her earlier... now she has someone else, wh0le l0t better than me, i have to leave them like that... i don't want to be called "perampas" or anything like that...

p/s: syg, kalo u baca ni, i juz nk ckp yg i undurkan diri untuk korang berdua... die betul2 sygkn awk... jgn hancurkn bende yg indah tu, ok? tp jgn risau, i'll be there if u need me or anything... mmg salah i sbb xappr0ach awk awal2 dulu... so, skrg i kene la tanggung salah i ni... but, don't feel bad about yourself... u g0t a man that's much more better than me... he'll take care of you... if he doesn't, i'll kn0ck him d0wn! mcm mane p0n, i'll still remain as your longest best friend you can ever ask...

Multitasking...!!??!!

haha! i'm the guy who likes to try everything! don't get the wr0ng idea, but trying things that are positive... such as sports... although i'm not good or really sucks at it, i still enj0ying it... =D

only winter sports i didn't get to play because Malaysia is sunny for 365 days a year... if it's not sunny, it'll rain... haha!

other than that, work and experience is sumthing else for me to be preoccupied...paper work, getting sponsorships, organizing events, i want to try everything... i want to learn, i want to give my best...

the only thing that drives me to this very day is my DAD... Trying to meet up to his standard is very very tough... he's a sportsman, he has a very go0d brains! n i'm nowhere near his standards...

i'm sorry dad, i still can't meet up to your standards... but trust me, i'm trying my best to do it...

late night chatting...

it br0ught me smile seeing her online... after c0mmenting on her pr0file, she turned on her Y! messenger... i was delighted! hehe... we chatted f0r a long time... so cool the internet! she's on an0ther country, but stil can chat as if she is in fr0nt of me... after that enc0unter, i kn0w i have strong feelings towards her... n i kn0w she feels the same way...

terbantut niat nk bwt powerpoint on foot diabetes! haha! chatting nye psal, smpai leka... tp xpe, raw materials da siap, cume tinggal susun je utk presentation...

looking forward on seeing you again...! miss you so much... =D

Valentine's Day...??

tiba2 terngiang2 lagu "Lucky" nyanyian Jason Mraz dan Colbie Calleit (bt0l x spelling?? huhuhu)...

wahhh... bru je lpas ku basuh otak member ku s0rg nih psal angau, paap! stepek kene muka ku balik! ku sudah sangka ini akan berlaku... tapi tak sangka begitu cepat! bak kata orang, live f0recast nye, not delayed!

it's only been 1 day since we've parted... but, why do i miss her so much?? why am i still thinking ab0ut her? It wasn't like this before... hmm... just d0n't kn0w what to do... when can i ever see her again?? only g0d kn0ws...

i am so grateful to g0d that have made us met each other... since we were small... ya Allah, ku bersyukur kerna menemukan ku dgn nye...

Arrgghh!!! ape nye angau... nk buang jauh2, lg rapat die menampal pada diri ku...

Tapi, ku perlu cool d0wn dulu, 1 way or an0ther... why? because i still don't kn0w her status...! Is she taken, or available? hmm... if she is really taken, i'll be so heartbroken... huhuhu... but, if that guy is way better than me, can make her happy, i just have to let her go... that's what we all want to see in someone that we love most, is that for them to be happy, although it's not with you...

Ad0i!!!

waahhhh!! jwbnye bertepuk sblh tgn je lah ku ini kerna die sudah berpunya... alaaa..... ni la sebabnye segan nk appr0ach...

1 thing about crushes is that you'll always end up crushed...

huhuhu.... am i right...?

aduyai... so, move 1 is da right ch0ice... hehe...

p/s: tetiba tringt lagu "Penat berjalan... di tengah kota... mencari teman... bukannya mudah..." haha!

What d0es my heart says? he's been sh0uting for quite some time, but i just noticed...

Speaking of the heart, there are lots of things that are related... am i right? or am i wr0ng?

such things are for instance, the love life... haha! it's n0t that complex, but sure thing not a simple one... am i in love? am i stil in love? h0w about the past love life? even this subject has it's subs... huhu... i'm so confused right now... it's been a long time i've been in a position called "gantung tak bertali"... damn... bad isn't it...

yes, i kn0w i'm not go0d enough... i don't have the looks, i got a flabby body, what more that i can offer... i have a crush with this girl... recently, in this class... it's more to like a religious class... but in that very class, i think i got a crush with this someone... haha! cliche isn't it?? but, i'm stil afraid to approach her because i still don't know her status! all my life, it's been full of rejection... hehe... g0t used to it in the end...

about this girl, i want to know her more... we can still be friends right if there's nothing going on between us... hehe.. =)

p/s: thanx for the conversation! really looking forward to talk to you again some time... =) do keep in touch...
(menyesal la xmintak number die skali... ak mintak die add kt FB je... aduh! beng0ng nye ak... huhuhu...)

info web page that helped my assignments n subjects! thanx internet!! haha!

da lama xjenguk2 kt cni... huhu... bkn xnk, cuma otak ku k0s0ng seketika (lama jugak laaa) utk mencurah ceritera dan idea... haha! alang2 tuu, juz nk bg inf0 kat rakan2 seperjuangan fisioterapi tentang laman2 web yg ku jumpe yg dpt banyak men0l0ng bwt assignments n revisi0n... (kalo ad yg revise arr... haha!)

surfing! that's what they call it! n0t wave surfing, but web surfing! that's what i did f0r the past few days... hehe... a l0t that i can find in this mighty large World Wide Web! these are a few that i like to share:

• www.medscape.com
• www.ccmtutorials.com
• www.sportsinjuryclinic.net

want m0re? nanti je la ku kongsi lg, ye...? hehe... jgn marah...

sem baru...

wahhh.... lama gler ku xupdate bl0g nih...! tahun baru, azam baru, sem baru... but stil the old me, the going-to-be-21years old me...

sem nih ku amik 4subjek je... huhu... dgn harapan ad time utk study n naikkn pointer ku yg menurun skit demi skit nih... aduyai...

sambil tu, ad projek mega dan projek2 sampingan... antaranya Advance Counseling Training siri ke-2, sambungan drpd pangk0r aritu... kali ni nk bwt kt Pulau Perhentian plak... nk scout tempat2 sesuai, harga berpatutan, di samping kertas kerja yg perlu dirangka... huhu... yg sampingan, mcm explorace ala amazing race dan Speaker Corner yg bru2 ni dihidupkan semula...

kali nih ku nk bt0l2 manfaatkan masa yg ada d tangan ku utk membuat kerja yg berfaedah... ni kire azam baru arr... hehe...

until next time, ku update lg... bubye... assalamualaikum...