New Kid (cat) in the house!! hehehe....

Mama bawak balik adik baru.... nama asalnye, bieber (adik perempuan ku nye keje bg nama... -.-") tapi, bile da sampai kat shah alam, tiba-tiba je nama die tukar jadi BABU! haha! yg itu baru keje ku... hehehe.... so, kesimpulannya nama die Babu Bieber.... cool right?? JB p0n ad adik... adiknye ada d0k ngan kite0rg... haha!

masa awal2, die kurus... maen p0n xnk... malu-malu kucing gamaknye kot... huhuhu... =p lepas 2 minggu, secara mengejut die berubah menjadi seseorang (lebih tepat seekor) yg amat nakal!

tidur nk tempat yg ad kelas je, xmaen tido dlm bilik besi berjaring... tidur mesti dengan ku, tak sah kalo tak berebut bantal dengan ku... -.-"

nak mandi, demand! tak mau mandi air besa, tp

nk air suam... sauna la katakan... 2 kali seminggu plak tuhh mandi...

kalo nk ke toilet, pandai masuk toilet... pintu toilet da mmg sedia ada lubang kecil dibawah khas untuk die masuk keluar... whenever nature calls, he answers it inside there through that hole...! fascinating right?? =) smpaikan ku yg masuk ingin 'melabur saham' dalam tuh, die pun ik0t sekali! 1st, die jenguk2 melalui lubang itu... lpas tu die masuk... ak tgh canggung baek punya ngah layan feel, die p0n sibuk bising2 meow2 gak... aduyai... potong stim t0l... lpas tu, die 'melepaskan hajatnya' di hujunkg bilik air sana sedangkan ku di 'kaunter labur saham' di sini... bermulalah peperangan berbalas bunyi! wakakakaka!

skrg, ngah tergedik2 kat ruang tamu... bila tak ada sesiapa layan die, die mencari pasal dengan menggigit kaki... keje die bergedik, makan, tidur... t

hat's the cycle.... =)

Stay Strong, as you were before...

A message to myself.. stay strong, as you were before... for her's sake, please stay intact so that she can remain happy...

it'll probably sound like i'm pampering too much, but for me, i have to give the best to her... i'm her boy, i'm also her best friend, and she doesn't want to lose both titles...

by being her friend, i have to listen and understand about her feelings, although it involves her ex which also the person who betrays me, stab me at the back without him noticing it...

by being her friend, i have to go through that pain and suffering just to listen to shatever she wants to say so that she'll be happy again by spitting out all the sadness...

i have to bear the pain so that she won't lose a friend... i have to stay strong...

to me, she is more important than whatever i am... my feelings, my strength, myself especially, not that important compared to her...

as long as i can make you happy, it'll be fine... anything that can make you happy, i'm willing to do it, whatever the costs...

1 week left of posting here in Ipoh......

Counting the days as it draws nearer to the end of my 1st posting.....

i don't know wether staffs and clients here will miss me, but for sure i'll miss them.... for me, they're great!

Yayasan Sultan Idris Shah has taught me a lot. Not just in physiotherapy knowledge, but knowledge in life.... This place taught me how to live a good life... The disabled taught me how to as strong as them... They also taught me to never give up, like them not giving up to learn how to be independent....

I'm wounded.....

Have you ever been stabbed before? do you know how it feels if a 10tan truck falls directly on top of you? have you ever feel being electricuted with 10k watts of electricity?

imagine put all that together, and it happens to your own heart.... for me, that's how frustration feels like...

After what i've done, you still miss him instead of me?? you only miss to hit me and torture me...

is it still not enough the love i gave you? you know my love is a privilege... why not try to love me instead of remembering things about that jerk?? Am i not good enough? is it because of he's taller and i'm fatter??

u asked me to give you time to forget about him, and i gave you all the time you need... but i can't wait for 5years like before....

u asked me to understand th condition you are in right now, but have you ever tried to understand me? if i can, why not you? is it because all humans are different??

hmm.... what i'm asking you is to think rasionally with your mind... please... i'm begging you... i'm like others, i want to be loved...

You are so not over him...........

Ku tahu sudah banyak kesilapanku sejak dari dulu lagi... ku sudah tahu pengalaman akan mengajar kita.... akan tetapi, ku masih membiarkan ia berlaku... ku sudah memberitahu, yang lepas tu lepas je lah... walau ape pun alasannya... ku mahu kamu bahagia apabila berdamping denganku... tetapi, reaksi yang kamu berikan amat susah untuk menyatakan kamu bahagia bersama ku... adakah tidak mencukupi kasih sayang ku curahkan untuk kamu? adakah kehadiranku menyerabutkan kamu lagi....? adakah kamu perlukan masa lagi? apa perlu ku buat supaya kamu sayang padaku...? ku bersyukur kerna kamu menghargai diri ku kerna belum ada orang lain menghargai ku seperti kamu menghargai ku...

tiap-tiap hari ku berdoa supaya pintu hatimu terbuka untuk menerima ku... ku juga berdoa agar dia jodoh ku, ibu bapa dpat menerimanya dan ibu bapanye menerima ku...

akan tetapi, lumrah manusia untuk menyatakan "enough is enough"... ku tidak mahu itu berlaku... kenapa ku amat sakit sekarang ini? apa salahku, apa dosaku untuk menerima dugaan ini ya Tuhanku yang Maha Adil?

Apa jua cubaan dan dugaan akan ku tempuhi, hanya ku minta padaMu untuk memberikan kudrat untuk mengharunginya.... ku redha akan keadaan kami sekarang... ku hanya boleh bersabar dan beristighfar.... janganlah Kau ambilnya daripadaku lagi...

please, i beg u to not to think about him anymore...... yang lepas, lepaskanlah... tiddak cukupkah ku merana dan makan hati disini....? atau pembalasan ini belum setimpal dengan apa yang ku pernah buat dulu....? astaghfirullah al 'azim.....................

Apa yang sebenarnya berlaku hari ini?

Let's recap on today's activity.... i wake up at 5am, blurred and don't know what to do. Then, 6.30am i took m shower... after that, get dressed and solat... then, around 7.15am i drove and dropped Waqar at YSIS... i was on my way to the hospital, heavy traffic congested the road... plus, lousy and 'kurang ajar' drivers was all over the place... ku memecahkan keheningan pagi itu dengan kata2 'power' dan tidak menyenangkan langsung.... they're really testing my patience...

arriving at the hospital, no parking... so many sick people nowadays... damnit! I went to the X-ray room and being x-rayed after waiting 1/2++ hour... it sucks... Then, they asked me to go to the S.O.P.D... Whatthehell is that????? after following instructions, arrived at the surgery clinic... i gave my referral letter, they asked me to sit... i sat d

own, another 10 minutes they called my back semata-mata meminta i.c.... i gave my i.c., they asked me to sit down again... another 10-15minutes, i was called again... they gave me the letter and i.c. and told me to come on 25th of january 2011... whatthefuck??? they made me waited just to say that i have to come again on the 25th??? i have things to do, i'm on practical... why do they like to waste my time just like that???

good thing my 'sister', Cheong Zhi Qing cheered me up today by showing improvement on her walking and standing... she was born prematurely and diagnosed with Diplegic Cerebral Palsy... for me, she is cute, adorable and clever... she doesn't want anybody else to take care of her except me and Amalina.... huhuhu... i love her and hoping to see her grow up normally... my short term goal is to make sure she can stand unsupported with her own 2 feet... Very easy for us normal people, but very hard for them the disa

bled...

so, was it worth it that i had a bad start for today? until now i'm feeling that i can't get rid of this frown on my face... why??? For me, Cheong Zhi Qing was the only person that can make me happy today... huhuhu.... many thanks for her... i'm sure i'll feel sad leaving this place, especially her........

Yayasan Sultan Idris Shah, Bercham, Ipoh, Perak

8November-31Disember ku akan berada di sini untuk menjalani latihan klinikal ku sebagai seorang ahli fisioterapi.....

staff2nya best, patient2 yg baik, suasana kerja yang amat menenangkan..... what else can you ask from it? hehehe....

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